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This is for you Rogue.

Well first off this will be the second time I write this because my stupid computer decided to act up and not work and this somewhat long post got lost somewhere in the internet and has yet to return to me. So there now I have to rewrite it all. But I don’t mind :)

This is a post dedicated to my friend Rogue. Go ahead and feel free to follow her links. Here’s her Twitter and here’s her Tumblr oh and be sure to follow her Tumblr she is just starting and could use some more followers ;)

If it wasn’t for many things all being perfectly alined I doubt we would even know each other now. Well I’m going to cut the explanation of how we met short by saying we ended up being in line together at a concert and well during the several hours of us waiting for the show we actually bonded. Which is pretty weird for that to happen at a concert for me because usually no one ever comes and talks to me. Hm maybe I don’t seem approachable or something, who knows. But seeing as she already knew Sophie from a previous concert (which I wish I went to even more knowing I could have met Rogue that much sooner) they actually started talking which was great. I’m kinda a shy person around people. Well no not really shy more I’d much rather you come up to me because I won’t come up to you sort of person. But anyways that’s besides my point. Well we exchanged ‘info’ and have been tweeting it up ever since. (I do also have her phone number and am facebook friends with her but we really don’t talk through that.)

Well Rogue this paragraph is for you. The ones above were more for my followers (as you could tell because I really didn’t need to explain to you how we met because you already knew. But they didn’t and they will most likely be reading this as well.) You are one amazing girl. I am so glad that you are now a part of my life. You are funny, nice, smart, and just all around a pretty dang well rounded girl. This summer we must hang out. Well besides the concert where we will probably be sitting outside of the venue for HOURS. I am so glad you tweet me everyday (or for hours everyday. Dang I don’t think I can remember a day since I met you that I haven’t tweeted you. Hahaha) you are by far my best twitter friend. But no that does not mean I am willing to give you my twitter password. ;) Well damn there is so much more I could say but it’s already pretty lengthy and I don’t want to force you into reading anymore than I already am (I mean come on it is summer for pete’s sake, who’d really want to read something this lengthy? Well me, but that’s besides the point. I enjoy reading, and writing you can probably already tell by this longish post. And my previous ones as well.) so I’m going to leave you with this. Rogue I love you. You are so amazing and I know we haven’t know each other for very long at all but I hope we stay friends for a very very long time and into the future. ♥

-Madeline :)

I love handwritten letters.

I know I’ve talked about this before (roughly like a few months ago) but there is just so much I love about handwritten letters. 

I just finished writing my friend a letter and just realized how personal they can be. Just putting the pen to paper makes it personal. No one has the exact same handwriting as you so when you make the effort to actually write it out, I feel it shows you care just a little bit more. I’m not sure about how other people write letters, but I know I write them exactly like how I speak. Well that goes for anything written by me I guess. I’d say I have pretty strong voice in everything I write, but in letters I just feel like it’s even more of myself in it ya know? 

Well I don’t know about you but I just love receiving mail. Mail that isn’t like junk or report cards and stuff. I RARELY get mail. I don’t even get birthday invites mailed to me. Remember when you were in like 3rd and 4th grade and all your invitations to parties were sent through the mail? Yeah I miss that. Now all you get is like some mass facebook message or something and then people have stupid conversations about totally unrelated stuff on that post and you are stuck with all those pointless god damn email notifications…. But I’m not going to go into how frustrating that is. Yeah when I get mail nowadays it’s either a magazine subscription, spam or something else I don’t want, or money from whatever birthday or holiday has accrued recently (that kind of mail I love to get :D) but I NEVER get any letters from anyone. That’s why I like to send them. I think other people would love to receive some form of a letter just to say hey I was thinking about you and wanted to write you a letter. I’d hope that’d cheer them up or at least give them something to read if they want to.

Oh geez well I have plenty more on this subject I could say but it’s 3 in the morning and I’m beyond tired right now and think it’d be best for me to get some sleep instead of babbling on to my computer about my love for handwritten letters. Even though there is plenty more I could say I may touch on at a later date. But for now this is all you get.

Goodnight. 

Changing up my style.

I’ve been thinking or noticing that my writing style has altered. The content and my voice is still the same. Just they way I’ve been writing has just well changed. Nothing drastic or anything, it’s just slightly different. Like on here. I’ve occasionally begun signing my name at the end of posts. I’ve been doing this because it feels almost more personal you know? Kind of like I’m just stating things just to state them but taking sort of an ‘ownership’ on them and almost making them feel like they are addressed to you because I am addressing it to be from myself. (I doubt that’s how you feel but that’s how I think you’d feel in my mind.)

There’s also probably a ton of other alterations I am starting to do on tumblr that I don’t even notice. but I just wanted to point out this one for now because it was on my mind. :)

-Madeline ( <= see look I just did it again right there.)

Goals for this summer.

Okay, I’m not one of those people who makes this huge long list just of crap they want to do in the summer and then if they don’t accomplish it they feel like their summer sucked or they try and pull off one of those movie like moments where they try to accomplish everything on the list in like two weeks. No that’s not me. I really don’t have any thing I want to make sure I do even. This is just rough look at what I would like to have in my summer. 

• Take photos. 

Of course I’m still taking photos, but if you can’t already tell I haven’t been taking as many as I use to. I just haven’t really had the time or place to take any. Seeing as school’s out I’ll have more than enough time to just mess around with my camera, and even though I am not the biggest fan of summer weather (I am much more of a winter and autumn kind of person not a spring and summer girl) it can be nice for taking photos, and the sunsets here are amazing. 

• Go to several concerts. 

No I don’t mean going to Warped Tour and tons of concerts like that (even though that’d be fun and I’d love to, but most likely won’t be able to go) I’d love to just see some little local bands and support the music scene I have in my town (yeah it’s not much but I think it’s unique). I kind of think why should I have to go down to Seattle (it’s roughly 2 hours away) every time I want to see a concert when I could just walk downtown and go to Jinx (an art gallery that also does some live music in their basement. It’s a cool place.) or something.

• Go to Seattle.

It kind of gets annoying always going up to Seattle just to go and stand in line for an hour (or 7 depending on the show) at a venue and not really getting to see the city. I love Seattle. And even though I live so close a have barely seen it. I only know a small part of it. Geez my Dad even grew up in Seattle I’d think he’d love to take me up there and let me see the city some. All I want to do is spend a weekend up there (or longer. I would love to be in Seattle for much longer) and go around and see what it’s like. I love cities. When I’m older I would love to live in a metropolis. 

• Learn something.

You’d think someone who has just got out of school would want to do anything in their power not to learn anything for the whole  2-3 months they have off school. Well not in my case. And no I’m not going to be taking advanced math and science classes so I can get ahead. That’s not the kind of learning I want to do either. What I really want to do is learn some new skills. I want to take some cooking classes (I’d love to be able to cook. Currently I am probably one of the worst cooks you could ever meet. But hey at least I’m trying), maybe guitar lessons (I’d love to learn how to play any form of music. I don’t necessarily want to be a rockstar or anything. I just want to play simple tunes and be happy knowing I am playing them and not just listening to someone else), I also want to take some more spanish classes so I can learn that language and just any language in general, because I think being bilingual is not only a good skill to have but a fun one as well.

• Have some alone time.

This year especially I’ve felt like I haven’t had enough time for myself, even though I’ve had more ‘alone time’ I’ve ever had in my life. But this summer I know I’ll have plenty of time just to walk around or do whatever I want. I don’t need to see anyone but my family for 2 months if I don’t want to. But knowing me I’ll be seeing people all the time because even though I want to be alone I get lonely too easily and I hate feeling alone.   

• Go out and do something. 

Clean my room, get a job, babysit, volunteer work, really just anything. I just want to do something this summer. I want to be somewhat productive this summer. I want to get something accomplished or work for a task and actually get it to a better place than it was before. I really don’t want my summer to go by and people to ask me what I did with my summer and tell them all I did was sit in my room. I would love to tell them I helped other people or made the community somewhat better, hell even just saying my room isn’t the disastrous hellhole it usually is would be a big enough accomplishment for me.

See there’s no ‘go the amusement park and ride all the rides until you puke’ or ‘I’m going to throw the party of the year!’. Just something I hope I make sure to do this summer. That’s all I really care about. Yeah of course I want to hang out with friends and stuff like that but these are the things I want to do for myself not with other people. Well the concert one I would love to have my friends with me on that, but I know there will be some that I’d just go to alone because I want to and not really caring if other people come or not, because they probably wouldn’t want to.

Well anyways this is just what I have been thinking about today seeing as it’s the first day of summer vacation. I’ll keep you posted as I start actually doing some of the things listed and not just sitting on my computer typing about them. Until then I hope you are having a great summer so far. :)

-Madeline

Another Sunday Well Wasted.

Well it’s already 5:30 here. I didn’t wake up until 3. I really don’t know why I over slept so much (well besides the fact I didn’t go to bed until 6 in the morning.) usually even if I don’t go to bed at a “respectable” time I wake up roughly around noon, not 3 in the afternoon. I guess the lack of sleep has finally caught up to me. That’s just great. But hey there’s always a bright side right? This will be the last Sunday I’ve “wasted” for a while. I’m almost out of school. Almost. Just 4 more days. Then I’ll have a couple of months to do what ever the hell I want. A majority of it will just be sleeping.